Transitioning
I've been thinking a lot about my gender identity lately (which possibly isn't the best for my mental state right now).
I haven't ever really given it much thought, I've always felt different then what I look like, but I'm not completely unhappy with my 'female parts'. At the moment I identify as pangender, due to never thinking too deep into it. I've recently moved in with someone who gives me major gender envy & I'm not sure what to do. I wouldn't mind all of the changes that T gives you but it's such a big decision especially at this point in time where I'm unsure if I just don't like the way I look because of my weight or my perceived gender.
I've been drawing myself more masculine as well which I think is helping my decision. when I draw myself I give myself the hair cut that I would like & a mustache & sideburns, I thought I wouldn't like facial hair but after thinking about it a bit more I do like the idea of a little sorta patchy mustache, not enough to hide my feminine face but just enough to make people think twice you know? This stuff is too hard for me argh.
Thanks for reading <3